HEURISTIC

brights-on:

So I’m writing back.

Dear Freshman Me,

You’re going to go a long way to get to the person that’s writing to you now. People say that the next four years of your life are going to be your greatest, they’re not. But, they are the greatest yet. You’re going to change, a huge amount,  but remember, every little thing that happened, good or bad, contributed to the person you’ll become. So, hate nothing, because it’s all going to move you in a positive direction, even if it doesn’t look like it. 

Your friends will change, often. Sometimes, it’s going to be messy and hurtful and you’ll feel the worse you’ve ever felt. Other times, it’ll be a gentle goodbye and replacement. Either way, remember to love everybody, because they will love you back. Don’t forget the meaning of your name, “one who loves and is loved back.” Right now, you’re pretty unknown. But give it a few years, you’ll have people that are really going to miss you. 

You wont go to the schools you told me about, and you won’t study the things you mentioned. You’ll be in the perfect school for you, believe me. It’s going to be one of the biggest reality checks of your life when you get those rejection letters, but San Diego is going to be so good to us, just watch. Fate works in mysterious ways, but remember that everything happens for the best. Honestly, it does. There are things that will happen to you, and things that are happening to me right now, that seem purely negative. Everything will be okay, your role models are people that found positive aspects in everything they saw, remember? 

Keep chasing art, it’s done a lot for you.

Punish nobody, no matter what they do to you. If you really want to win, love them.

It’s never about winning. People will say it’s all about trying your best, but that’s not true either. When you try to do something, all I want you to do is think about why you’re doing it. If it’s pure, then pour your entire heart into it, and hold on so tight to that idea that it becomes a part of your soul. 

You’re going to have regrets. I have no advice for them, but know that they’re supposed to be there.

I’m proud of you. I hope you’re proud of me.